About 5 or 6 years ago I found myself in a very uncomfortable place in life. I wasn’t happy with the life that I was living.
I was trying to be someone who I thought others wanted me to be.
I wasn’t living the abundant life that God wanted me to have.
I was afraid of trying new things because I feared failure.
I was just going through the motions.
At that time everything seemed meaningless. I began to wonder what was the point of everything I was doing. I wondered if my life was really having any real positive effect on those around me.
These feelings only got worse as time went on.
Along with many other factors these feelings eventually led me to a two and half month medical leave. During my medical leave God did some major “heart surgery” on me. This was a very painful time but it was also a great time of healing.
During this time God reawakened the passions I once had for life. Just okay isn’t good enough for me anymore. I want my life to count for something. I want to live my life with no regrets.
The last 4 years have been an exciting journey for me. I am now prioritizing my life around what brings my soul satisfaction. I still struggle from time to time but I am committed to moving forward.
I don’t want to go through the motions anymore!
Have you ever struggled with just going through the motions? How did it make you feel?
***** This post was inspired by this song by Matthew West